I lived in acres upon acres of bright yellow corn
Touching endless blue skies
Under a honey gold sun
This morning I woke up to tear drop dew
The remnants of winter grieving for itself
The air cool and soft
Patches of green cropped up in big places
And little places
But the green came
Spring has begun
Firmly
Fiercely
Finally
Frighteningly
As the harbinger of death
Of a life
Of a love
Of an era
I had known since the leaves were brown
That budding flowers might ruin the heart just as quickly as sickness
Poisonous pollen infects the season
Proving that time is not the only killer
This heart of mine is no longer a watch
But a time stamp for a memory
I had loved between the crisping of the air and
The gasping of the wind
On the chilling of the mornings
And warmth of the noon sun
Dragging its heat from me
As my winter stayed passionate
Each snow flake - a dying star on my lips
And every cold, shaking breath was a tribute to love
Nervous love
New love
Fragile love
A boy
As sweet as snowflakes
But hot to the touch
Meadows in his irises
He was sunshine on a snow day
I had loved between hail storms
And avalanches
And floods
As the world tried to create itself again
Without meadows
Without sunshine streaming through snowflakes.
By the time the first flower bloomed
My heart had stopped beating
I had loved until love died with the winter
I will bury these memories and let the corn grow over them
I will watch the sun rise and set on the fields
I will sit under the endless sky until it turns black
I will walk away
And watch the sun rise in a new place
I will move on.
I will live on.
I am gone.
